The month of November was a busy one for me training-wise. Which is not uncommon for me when I am struggling. I often train (*and train hard*) to fill a void and to channel my nervous energy. This month was no exception. I felt like my body let me down (*again...*) so I needed to know that it was strong and capable. My type-A tendencies were in over-drive and training is something I can control when I feel a little lost.
This month included...
- Cycling - 9 hrs
- Running - 59 km
- Weights - 2 hrs
- Yoga - 6 hrs
I cried on Saturday while shopping for Christmas presents. Because this year we were supposed to be shopping for one more.
I cried on Saturday because family is something I value and want more than anything. But I am scared that it won't happen for me.
I cried on Saturday because this is something I can't control. And surrendering that control leaves me feeling vulnerable and helpless.
All those tears and all that stress, made me realize that this time I need to do things differently.
This time I need to seek stillness, accept my sadness, and give my heart space to heal.
This week's workouts reflect these changes...
Monday - 90min Yoga
Tuesday - 60min Hot Yoga at Goodlife Fitness
Wednesday - 5km trail run with 2x hill scrambles
Thursday - 8km run
Friday - Rest
Saturday - Rest
Sunday - 40min Yoga + 10 min Meditation
I realize this is not the norm for me. So if you are hoping for running and racing motivation, that is not me right now. It has been a difficult transition for me as well. But I am seeking a gentler approach these days, because my goal is something different right now.
I am learning to open my heart, surrender my fears, and offer my hope to the universe.
It is scary. It is hard. But I think that might be why it is so necessary.
I have continued to focus on my nutrition and have been experimenting with more diverse gluten-free options. I have a better handle on finding gluten-free option when I am traveling for work, so that is helping to make life a little bit easier. I have noticed a big difference in my energy levels over the past month, and will likely be heading in for follow-up blood work in a couple of weeks to see how my thyroid levels have changed.
This week's dinners include...
Monday - Conte's Gluten-Free Perogies and Salad (*definitely recommend these! I found them at Whole Foods and the are music to my Eastern European Heart*)
Tuesday - Freshii Buddha Satay on Quinoa with Chicken
Wednesday - Fresh on Bloor Moroccan Bean Stew, Gluten-Free Corn Bread and Hummus
Thursday - Sol Bean Burgers and Salad
Friday - Chicken Green Curry on Rice Noodles
Saturday - Madras Chicken
Sunday - Pork Tenderloin, 2 baby Sweet Potatoes, and Salad
I hope you are all having an amazing week!
Love Your Favourite Darwinian Fail,