If you were looking for some kind of surgery update today, I don't have one for you.
Because it didn't happen...I got a phone call at 3pm Thursday to say that my 8am surgery was cancelled due to over-scheduling. And that I was being bumped to November 25th instead. This is how I felt --->
I was frustrated when I got off the phone for a couple of reasons...
1. I spent all of October rearranging my work schedule and my life for this date.
2. And this new date is annoying close to my 30th Birthday, and just that little bit more inconvenient
I was happy with the timing of the 7th. It wasn't too close to the holidays. It was post-race season. And it meant that when my 30th Birthday rolled around on December 5th I would be able to celebrate a new decade fully healed and ready for the next chapter. I know it is silly, but I am the kind of girl who likes a good fresh start. And with my surgery just 9 days before, I am not convinced that I will be feeling 100%.
So I got off the phone angry and furiously began reorganizing my life (*Anyone who knows me knows I HATE using whiteout in my planner. And there was a whole lot of whiteout going on.*) But within a few hours I was able to get most things sorted out. Now I just needed to completely reorient my expectations for the next month. BLAH! So I may have angrily stewed over a big bowl of Caramel Corn. (*It was delicious and necessary*)
I woke up Friday morning and realized that this wasn't exactly the best way to deal with things. Anger never serves you. And if I have learned anything from my 20's it is that even your darkest day has a greater purpose. Most things happen the way they are meant to, even if it doesn't feel that way in the moment. So I needed to embrace it and find my bright side.
There is nothing I can do about the schedule change. And to be fair, after 7 surgeries, this is the first time this has ever happened to me. I might need to tweak my plans a little, but waiting a few more days isn't the end of the world. So I dusted myself off and started my Friday with a 60min Cycle Core class.
I draw your attention to my swollen left side after STWM). But I can run a little and cycle/elliptical to my hearts content. I can also work on gaining some serious strength in my legs. Which is exactly what I intend to do.
I admit I have been coasting in the fitness department for a couple of months now (*like approx 3 months*). I haven't been training consistently. And I have been enjoying plenty of extra treats.
I lost my motivation when I found out about surgery #7 and my uncooperative body only further dampened my resolve. So I have only been doing the bare minimum. And I have not been very respectful of my body or my health. This clearly needs to change, so perhaps this Surgery Bump is actually the kick in the pants I need.
On Saturday I activated my GoodLife Fitness Membership. I downloaded the new Taylor Swift album. I rescheduled my post-op Physio. And today I am meeting up with Coach Michelle to go over some new Leg and Core Routines. I have decided to use the next couple of weeks to get my mojo back. And to ensure that my body is the healthiest it can be before I head back to the OR.
I may not be 100% healed by the time my 30th Birthday rolls around. But I am going to make sure that my 30's are going to be my healthiest and happiest decade yet.
Love Your Favourite Darwinian Fail,
*This post was written as part of GoodLife Fitness Blogger Ambassador Program, however all opinions expressed are my own*