Monday, 1 September 2014
So let's catch up. Some of my favourite blogger friends (Christina and Sarah) have been implementing Coffee Talk, and I kinda love it. So grab yourself a cup of coffee (or tea) and let's chat.
I'd ask you how your summer has been, and tell you that I am not sure where the summer went? It feels like I just got back from Paris, and now the summer over.
I would tell you that I have been loving my new job, but it has been busy. I just got back from Vancouver. And I got to spend the long weekend at the cottage with my 4 best friends, where I laughed so hard it hurt.
I'd also tell you that parts of this summer have been emotional. My Nana passed away after a long battle with cancer while we were away in France. And this August marks one year since I lost my Dad. Because we lost him so suddenly, it has taken the family some time to decide what we wanted to do with his ashes. So we set aside a number of weekends to spend time together and to spread his ashes. In some ways it feels like a lot has happened in the past year, and in others it feels like he was just here yesterday. I think I have found a peaceful place in grief, so it has been hard to revisit some of those raw moments.
I would share that I had another appointment with my cardio team and my surgeon. They are not happy with that pesky wire, so after much debate, we have decided surgery #7 is inevitable. And it has been tentatively scheduled for November. The surgery they are proposing is extremely minor, just a quick cut, tuck, and roll. So I am only planning on taking 3-4 days off work. And I was told I could expect to be back to full strength - running, exercising, and the whole bit within 2 weeks.
This has become standard in my world, and I had known that things weren't clicking for a while. So the hardest part for me, was telling my family. There was part of me that gave some serious thought to not telling anyone, and just going to the hospital alone. I know the worry weighs on people, and I hate being the source of that. But I decided people probably wouldn't be that fond of that idea either. So after a few days I caved and let everyone know.
I would tell you that this is what really changed the way I feel about my Fall race season. The doctors gave me the green light to keep training. They said the marathon is A-okay, and in fact they are excited to hear if I PR. But for me, my focus has shifted. I opted out of my 2 fall triathlons. And while I am still going to continue to train and I still plan on running my marathon - the results seem less important. This time around I don't feel like I have anything to prove. This time, to be honest, I am tired. So this time, I will be running with no expectations. Whatever happens, happens.
I would ask you to remind me about this when I toe the line in October.
So that pretty much sums up what's happening around here.
What would you tell me if we had coffee?
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