Monday, 1 September 2014

Coffee Talk

You may have noticed that things have been quieter than usual around here. Some of that has been because life has been a little hectic, so it has been hard to find the time to sit down and write. And the rest, is because there has been lots going on behind the scenes and I haven't really known what to say about it all.

So let's catch up. Some of my favourite blogger friends (Christina and Sarah) have been implementing Coffee Talk, and I kinda love it. So grab yourself a cup of coffee (or tea) and let's chat.

I'd ask you how your summer has been, and tell you that I am not sure where the summer went? It feels like I just got back from Paris, and now the summer over.

I would tell you that I have been loving my new job, but it has been busy. I just got back from Vancouver. And I got to spend the long weekend at the cottage with my 4 best friends, where I laughed so hard it hurt.

I'd also tell you that parts of this summer have been emotional. My Nana passed away after a long battle with cancer while we were away in France. And this August marks one year since I lost my Dad. Because we lost him so suddenly, it has taken the family some time to decide what we wanted to do with his ashes. So we set aside a number of weekends to spend time together and to spread his ashes. In some ways it feels like a lot has happened in the past year, and in others it feels like he was just here yesterday. I think I have found a peaceful place in grief, so it has been hard to revisit some of those raw moments.

I would share that I had another appointment with my cardio team and my surgeon. They are not happy with that pesky wire, so after much debate, we have decided surgery #7 is inevitable. And it has been tentatively scheduled for November. The surgery they are proposing is extremely minor, just a quick cut, tuck, and roll. So I am only planning on taking 3-4 days off work. And I was told I could expect to be back to full strength - running, exercising, and the whole bit within 2 weeks.

This has become standard in my world, and I had known that things weren't clicking for a while. So the hardest part for me, was telling my family. There was part of me that gave some serious thought to not telling anyone, and just going to the hospital alone. I know the worry weighs on people, and I hate being the source of that. But I decided people probably wouldn't be that fond of that idea either. So after a few days I caved and let everyone know.

I would tell you that this is what really changed the way I feel about my Fall race season. The doctors gave me the green light to keep training. They said the marathon is A-okay, and in fact they are excited to hear if I PR. But for me, my focus has shifted. I opted out of my 2 fall triathlons. And while I am still going to continue to train and I still plan on running my marathon - the results seem less important. This time around I don't feel like I have anything to prove. This time, to be honest, I am tired. So this time, I will be running with no expectations. Whatever happens, happens.

I would ask you to remind me about this when I toe the line in October. 

So that pretty much sums up what's happening around here.
What would you tell me if we had coffee?

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