I started running and training at a very complicated time in my life. In fact I ran my first half marathon the day before my double mastectomy. And as you know the past 2 years since then have not exactly been peaches and cream, so I have just trying to keep my head above water. Any training, any race result - was great, because I managed to make it out there at all. But this year, this year I have expectations. There is no cardiac surgery, no battle with BRCA1, no life altering loss - which to me means no excuses. Just showing up isn't good enough. This year I am expecting big things. This year I want to see what I am made of. This year it is all supposed to come together.
As you can see the pressure is on (or at least in my head it is). And as a result I have been trying everything under the sun to give me an edge. I went vegan. I started fixating on the scale and the whole "weight-to-power" ratio thing. I tried fasted-cardio. I asked my coach to ramp my mileage. And give me more speed work. And give me more workouts on the bike. And I need to weight train. And I need more yoga. And... I think you can see things were getting out of hand over here.
So Wednesday night I had a long Heart-to-Heart with Coach Michelle. She informed me that there is no way I train the way I am asking to train. It is way too many hours, way too much intensity, and way too much mileage. I will get injured or burn out. So I need to relax, give up the gimmicks, pick ONE training strategy, concentrate on that, and trust the process.
So that is what I am going to do (Scout Honor!) from here on out!
- I have chosen to focus on Quality Mileage, as opposed to Quantity.
- I am going to spend more time on the Bike, as I think this is the area that I am weakest
- And I am going to focus on eating healthy, whole, unprocessed food, without stressing out too much about calories or anything else.
Deep down I know this, which is why I am giving up the gimmicks.
Love Your Favourite Darwinian Fail,