Wednesday, 26 March 2014

Resting and Resetting

I mentioned last week that I was struggling a bit with my training and some serious self-doubt. I got swept up in the idea of "Keeping Up with the Jones" and found myself stuck in a negative cycle. This is really the first time I felt like my social media blogging addiction had a negative impact.

I have met some seriously amazing people here in my small little corner of the internet - many of whom have become "Real-Life Friends". And this community has always been extremely supportive, warm, and wonderful. Writing and sharing my experience has also helped challenge me and push me to do things I maybe would not have done entirely on my own. I definitely credit my online friends for encouraging me to sign-up for my very first half marathon. And now here I am with a serious love of running, training for a Half Ironman after completing another 6 half marathon, 2 full marathons, and a whole bunch of races. I am not sure I would have taken the plunge without this little blog. And writing about all of my adventures - good and bad - has been extremely cathartic and therapeutic while I muddled my way through the last few years.

But I can also see how our community can be intimidating. I started comparing my progress, my race times, my training, my body-type - to everyone on the internet. My instagram was chalk full of clean eats, long training hour, fast paces, PR's, and rock hard bodies. And I started to feel like I didn't measure up.

So last week I took a step back. I relaxed. I re-evaluated. I reset my focus and my expectations. And I feel 1000x better!

Last week...
  • I took 3 days of rest. 
  • I treated myself to a manicure/pedicure. 
  • I went out with my girlfriends for burgers and french fries. 
  • I also had a Coke for the first time in approx 10 years - it full of chemicals and sugar, but it was delicious!

  • I chose to skip my long run on Sunday and visit with my family instead
  • I had a great visit with my Nana and Papa
  • I ate candy and binge watched Season 2 of Girls
  • I went Bouldering - it is hard and my arms felt like jello the next morning
  • I gave up the scale
  • I unplugged for a little while
  • And I just relaxed
The truth is you only get to see what people want you to see. And that is not necessarily the whole story. So instead of worrying about what everyone else is doing, I am just gonna worry about me. This is my journey - complete with a broken body, a robot-heart, slow (but steady) progress, and "sometimes" clean eating. It is not about being perfect. It is about being healthy, happy, and balanced.

Love Your Favourite Darwinian Fail,