Monday, 17 March 2014

#BESTFOOT - Banning Negative Self-Talk

So I have spent a lot of time in my little corner of the Internet talking about health, self-esteem, body image, and more importantly Body Love. But I must confess, lately I have not been practicing what I preach. My head has been swimming with negative self-talk.

I have been hung up on the number on the scale. I have been counting every calorie. I have been berating myself for every treat. Nit-Picking my reflection in the mirror - questioning if I am making progress and getting stronger.

I have also been agonizing over my training - asking if I am doing enough, logging enough miles, and pushing hard enough. The answer I come up with is always "No" these days. If I log my usual 10-12hrs of training I curse myself my not being committed enough to log 20. I kick myself for being tired. And hate myself for not be stronger, faster, better.

I have been stuck in my own head - and all I see is all the way that I do not measure up.

It has not been all motivation and positivity over here. And I gotta confess I have been struggling.

I need to reset. I need to relax. And I need to remember why I started this whole adventure in the first place - as a way  to honour my body and my health for all that it does for me each and everyday.

So a couple of things are happening...
1. I am putting the scale away. 
I will not step on the scale for the next month (maybe more)
2. I will focus on eating clean, but not stress about every calorie. 
Food is meant to nourish me - body, mind, and soul. And I need to start thinking about it like that again.
3. I will trust my training. 
And I will remember that as long as I give each session my all than I am doing all that I can do - and that is enough.

Putting my #BESTFOOT forward this week is remembering that I am enough.

Last Week's Training...
Monday - Lunch-Time Pilates and a Hilly 10km Run with my Hubby
Tuesday - 10km with 6x 250m Hill Repeats
Wednesday - 1000m Swim and 60 minutes on the indoor trainer
Thursday - 90 minutes on the indoor trainer (because the weather sucked)
Friday - 8km Speed Session at the Track
Saturday - Hilly 10km at an easy pace
Sunday - my 25km turned into 15km  - could not tough off the freezing temps and the crazy head winds, so I called it a day early.

How do you ban negative self-talk? 
Do want to join me in a Scale Free 30 days?

Love Your Favourite Darwinian Fail,