So I have spent a lot of time in my little corner of the Internet talking about health, self-esteem, body image, and more importantly Body Love. But I must confess, lately I have not been practicing what I preach. My head has been swimming with negative self-talk.
have been hung up on the number on the scale. I have been counting
every calorie. I have been berating myself for every treat. Nit-Picking
my reflection in the mirror - questioning if I am making progress and
I have also been agonizing over my training - asking
if I am doing enough, logging enough miles, and pushing hard enough.
The answer I come up with is always "No" these days. If I log my usual
10-12hrs of training I curse myself my not being committed enough to log
20. I kick myself for being tired. And hate myself for not be stronger,
I have been stuck in my own head - and all I see is all the way that I do not measure up.
It has not been all motivation and positivity over here. And I gotta confess I have been struggling.
need to reset. I need to relax. And I need to remember why I started
this whole adventure in the first place - as a way to honour my body
and my health for all that it does for me each and everyday.
So a couple of things are happening...
1. I am putting the scale away.
I will not step on the scale for the next month (maybe more)
I will focus on eating clean, but not stress about every calorie.
is meant to nourish me - body, mind, and soul. And I need to start
thinking about it like that again.
3. I will trust my training.
will remember that as long as I give each session my all than I am
doing all that I can do - and that is enough.
Putting my #BESTFOOT forward this week is remembering that I am enough.
Last Week's Training...
Monday - Lunch-Time Pilates and a Hilly 10km Run with my Hubby
Tuesday - 10km with 6x 250m Hill Repeats
Wednesday - 1000m Swim and 60 minutes on the indoor trainer
Thursday - 90 minutes on the indoor trainer (because the weather sucked)
Friday - 8km Speed Session at the Track
Saturday - Hilly 10km at an easy pace
- my 25km turned into 15km - could not tough off the freezing temps
and the crazy head winds, so I called it a day early.
How do you ban negative self-talk?
Do want to join me in a Scale Free 30 days?
Love Your Favourite Darwinian Fail,