I would cover myself with baggy clothes, don high necklines, and sport a smile - all in an attempt to hide the battle that was raging underneath. My eye was constantly drawn to that prominent red scar that had made a home on the left side of my chest. And I hated my body.
And all I could see were all the things I wasn't. That scar was a reminder that my body wasn't healthy. It screamed "You are not enough. You are weak, and your body is defective!". And it's bright angry appearance made sure that everyone noticed.
There was a time where I was deeply embarrassed by all my Darwinian Failings..
But those days have come and gone.
And this little body of mine has a whole lot more scars. (many that are not appropriate to photograph)
But today when I look in mirror and I see all of the jagged lines crisscrossing my chest - I see something different. I see health. I see strength. And feel a profound and overwhelming sense of gratitude and pride.
I am so grateful for my life. And I am so grateful for my scars. They remind me every day how precious life is, and how hard I have fought for my health.They serve a a reminder to relish in every moment, of everyday, and to never take anything for granted.
Today I can see the beauty of my scars and I feel incredibly blessed.
Scars are Sexy Damnit!They just show the world that you are stronger than whatever has tried to hurt you! So this week's Strong is Sexy Shout Out goes out Derek! Someone I have had the pleasure of getting to know this past month through the power of the internet. Derek is battling melanoma right and is still recovering from his first surgery, and he now sporting one sexy looking scar.
So today I just wanted to take the time and send Derek lots of LOVE. I know you have a battle ahead of you, but you are STRONGER, BIGGER, and BADDER than anything cancer can throw at you. Your Scars are Strong and Sexy! And whenever you are feeling low, just look at your scar and remember that this is you making Cancer Your BITCH! You got this!
Please feel free to join in the Derek love-fest and leave him lots of comments and well wishes! You can also visit Derek's blog to follow his journey and support him all the way along!
Remember Strong is Sexy! And Being Healthy is Fabulous! So don't ever take that for granted.
Love Your Favourite Darwinian Fail,