Thursday, 10 January 2013

Fix A Heart

So the verdict is in. And this gal is heading back to the OR. After spending much of the afternoon kicking it at Toronto General - my fate was decided. Surgery is a must. Tweaks need to be made. And all of this is expected to go down in the next couple of weeks. I am just waiting for my official OR time


So I thought Demi Lovato's Fix a Heart was apt musical edition to today's post.



Because you can bandage the damage. 
But you never can fix a heart.

The reality of a robot heart is just this. There will be maintenance, complications, and surgeries. Those things are all very much a part of my world. This won't be the first - in fact this will be surgery #6. And I am well aware that it also won't be last.

At first the thought of heading back to the OR was devastating. The thought of going through the recovery  process all over again. Thinking about how much time and effort it took to rebuild after the last one. The changes this latest misadventure would have on my life and plans were all so overwhelming. The wounds from the last one were still very fresh in my mind.

But this is my life. 
And while these realities aren't ideal - I am grateful for it all none-the-less.

Being a badass bionic woman has its downsides. But there is no cure for Long QT syndrome, and this treatment has given me my life back.

I generally lead a healthy happy life. I run with abandon, train for marathons, and regularly get my sweat on without issue. And as mundane as some of that may sound - those are things that play a huge part of the life. I live a better life because of those things. And this is the life I want. I don't want to be a slave to my condition. And I want to be healthy and active for the rest of my life.

No limits, No excuses, Just endless possibilities. 
My little robot heart makes that all possible.

So while Surgery obviously isn't how I planned to start 2013, it means that I get to live the life I want. Don't worry about me. I'll be back. Stronger and Better than ever. And logging miles again before you know it.

Love your Favourite Darwinian Fail,
Krysten

44 comments:

  1. I adore you.
    PLEASE LET ME KNOW IF THERE IS ANYTHING I CAN DO TO HELP!!! (she shouts)

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    1. xoxox Thanks Hun!! Just keep being your lovely self :)

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  2. agree with Carla. you are incredible and i love your perspective!

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  3. Best outlook, and thank goodness for Canadian health care.

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    1. Heck yes! You are preaching to the public health care choir :)

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  4. Fabulous outlook. This is a minor "rest" period for you and you'll be stronger for it. Hugs to you.

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  5. Yes, surgeries suck! But the results of surgeries ROCK!

    Wishing you the best. May the surgery go better than expected and may the recovery be better and shorter than expected.

    PS: Your attitude of not liking your reality, but being willing to face it, accept it and do what you can with it is freaking impressive.

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    1. I like to think this surgery will improve my marathon time ;)

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  6. After reading your quote and beautiful post, it really should be called Change A Heart. XO. You were never broken. Pure inspiration.

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  7. Your positive attitude is so amazing. Prayers and thoughts with you!

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  8. Sending you lots of love and hugs and warm wishes for a speedy recovery! I have watched my own child recover from 2 heart surgeries and know what I challenge it is.
    With your positive attitude, you will rock this K! xo

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  9. Well, that sucks, but your attitude is awesome and inspiring! Best wishes for a super speedy recovery!

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  10. You're amazing. You will rise out of this BETTER THAN EVER and I can feel it. Demi Lovato is the perfect addition to this post because she, like you, is SO INCREDIBLY STRONG. xo

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  11. My prayers are with you, you an only get stronger from here.

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  12. I'm gonna have to have a heart to heart talk with your... ummm... heart. Beep Beep Boop. That is me telling it to take care of you.

    Wish the news was different, but happy that you are staying positive and getting healed. Cheers.

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    1. Penelope says sorry. But she promises to work hard post-op so I can run the Goodlife half!!
      xoxox

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  13. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Please do not hesitate to ask for anything :)

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  14. Damn! So sorry to hear this! I'll be thinking of you. I know you'll have a speedy recovery and be back and kicking ass in no time. And I love the song choice!

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  15. hope everything turns out well with this surgery! Wish your heart had a heart and would just let you be. You're beautiful in so many ways and I'm sorry this is happening. I know you are strong though. Here's to a speedy recovery!! ::hugs:: #WingsOut

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  16. This bites - wish you could get a pass with the other stuff you've gone through . . . I'll keep you in my thoughts and hope that it goes as smoothly as possible . . . and will look forward to hearing of all your crazy physical achievements as you recover! Hang in there!

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  17. Your strength is amazing, and your attitude is inspiring. Wishing the best for you.

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  18. As I wrote everywhere else but here yet - so sending huge virtual hugs your way!!! I am not a "prayer" person BUT I have my own way of holding important & healing & good thoughts for people & you are there!!! Let us know if we can do ANYTHING!

    HUGS!

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  19. Hoping for a speedy recovery.

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  20. Many many hugs and good wishes towards a quick tune up and a speedy recovery

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  21. SO MANY HUGS YOUR WAY!!! Seriously, you inspire me more than I can say and I'm sending speedy recovery thoughts towards you!

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  22. You are amazing! Your strength and outlook on life is so inspiring given your circumstances. Thank you for sharing your journey so honestly. 2013 is still going to rock for you. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers always.

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  23. SO bummed for you. But also so amazed at your incredible attitude! You really take the high road. I wish I could come help you with your recovery! Hugs.

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    1. Thanks girlie!! It will all work out - it always does. And this too, shall pass :)

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  24. You are incredible! So strong and brave and positive. A true inspiration. I hope I get to meet you one day! All the very best in your surgery and your recovery.. all of your little cheerleaders will be waiting here for you! :)

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  25. I am in awe of your outlook. Much love and hugs to you my friend!

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  26. Oh sweetie - I hate this for you so much. I like your outlook though. I think that's what is so important right now. It's either that or you just wallow in it. No need for that. Hugs! I sure wish I could do more than a virtual hug though.

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  27. Not the outcome we wanted... stay stong, chin up!

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  28. Sending lots of positive vibes your way!

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  29. You constantly amaze me with your mental strength. You go girl and yes, you will be rocking it in no time!

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  30. Big hugs Krysten, your uplifting and strong attitude bring so much inspiration and positive light into the world.

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  31. You are such a strong woman, I really admire you. I'll be praying for you!!

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  32. Oh Krysten, I'm sorry about this. But you are one of the strongest and bravest women and you've proved it time and time again. You have the most incredibly perspective (love the Demi song btw). Keep your chin up and here's to a speedy recovery. So maybe this will convince me to come to Toronto? :-) xoxo

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  33. Your positivity never ceases to amaze me. I'll be praying for you!

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  34. Thinking of you!!! You are so strong! Hugs!

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  35. You are such an inspiration- your motivation, determination, passion, and strength- you are, as I saw someone say on IG, the best Canadian celebrity I know :P My thoughts are with you! XO

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  36. I just want to say that I'm grateful I found you and your blog. Your positive attitude during these health challenges inspires me to keep a perspective when things aren't going as I'd like. If you can stay positive, so can I. Thank you - and hugs.

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  37. My fingers and toes are crossed for you. I wish you a speedy recovery and a sub 5 marathon soonish :) A little quote for you:: "If you're going through hell, keep going" X

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  38. I'm sorry you have to go through this! You have an amazing outlook and are so positive despite everything you've gone (are going) through. Sending good thoughts your way!

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  39. You have a great attitude and spirit about your surgery! Good luck - rest up and come back strong :)

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