Sunday, 6 January 2013

Being a Cyborg is Hard

I had a great post all planned for you guys today. It was supposed to be all about the 65km I ran last week. It was supposed to be about my fabulous weekend - watching En Vogue with my best friends and visiting with family. It was supposed to be about starting 2013 balanced and healthy.

But none of that was to be...

I didn't do any of those things this weekend. In fact I spent most of it on the couch, snuggling my ever faithful pup, and trying very hard to keep the tears at bay.

Sometimes Being a Cyborg is Hard.

And now is one of those times.

When I wrote about that pesky wire and the less than ideal placement of Penelope (aka my robot heart) a few weeks back - I knew I was on borrowed time. I just hoped and prayed with all my might that the time I had to borrow would last a little while.

But life often has other plans for me. And if I have learned anything from my many medical misadventures it is to assume nothing and accept that you are never in control.

On Friday, after a delightful meet-up with Miss Candy Fit herself, and gushing about how excited I was to start 2013 healthy, I felt a pop. I told myself not to panic. I took a deep breathe. Calmly walked home. And gentlely tried to push my robot heart back into place. Everything was swollen and bruised by that point, and I knew I needed to see my Cardio Team ASAP.

After several phone calls with the clinic coordinator, the pacemaker techs, and finally the cardiologist on-call, we decided I should just come in. And while we decided the problem didn`t require immediate action, it was now a game of wait-and-see.

Today I head back in to see my regular cardio crew and discuss where we go from here. After a quiet weekend there has been little to no improvement. Surgery is back on the table - though I am really hoping for another alternative. And there are a lot of questions that need to be answered. Time will tell where this latest misadventure will take me.

Wish me luck. And think Happy Heart thoughts.
Love your Favourite Darwinian Fail,
Krysten

35 comments:

  1. Sending you lots of love <3 you will be in my thoughts and prayers sweets xoxo

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  2. Thinking of you and sending lots of love and prayers in your direction! Be strong and we are all here for you! XOXO

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  3. Thinking of you, sending lots of positive thoughts and love!!

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  4. Oh Krysten, I'm so so sorry to hear this. I'm thinking good thoughts and sending positive vibes your way. Fingers crossed surgery can be avoided. I'm always here if you need to talk. No matter what though, you got this!

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  5. Thinking of you and sending lots of good thoughts your way! If it's any help, I've had a few cardiac patients have that happen to them. While it does mean more surgery for new wires, they were good as new soon afterwards. Good luck!

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  6. Sending you LOTS of Happy Heart Thoughts and positive vibes your way!!

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  7. Praying for you girl! This is just a bump in the road. My 2013 hasn't started off that great physically...but you know we still have 11 months and three weeks to get it done!

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  8. Sending warm wishes, prayers, and virtual hugs your way! Stay strong, girl.

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  9. Always in my thoughts & sending all the virtual positive thoughts possible your way!!! .... HUGE HUGS!!! You amaze me in every way!

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  10. Oh Krysten! I'm so sorry. Sending you lots of love and good thoughts your way. xoxo

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  11. Oh why can't that robot heart be as strong and lovely as you and just stay put! Danggggit! Good vibes to you and penelope. No matter what has to happen, you'll come back stronger and braver than ever. You always do! xo

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  12. Thinking of you and sending lots of hugs your way!

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  13. Aw, I'm SO sorry! This wasn't in the plans at all. Saying a little prayer for you today and sending you a big hug!

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  14. Sending happy heart vibes, love, and prayers your way!!!!

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  15. sending you all all all my prayers
    xo

    Carla

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  16. Sending you positive prayers and happy thoughts that the robot heart will be a ok! Xoxo

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  17. Sending you lots of love and prayers.

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  18. Sorry to hear about this, but I know you get through, your strong as hell!

    We are thinking of you

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  19. I know I already commented on IG, but I hope your week turns around and I'm sending my prayers to you! <3

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  20. Sending you lots of love and prayers, friend. You have overcome so much with your beautiful attitude and your faith in yourself...this is just another one of those times for it to come shining through, right? <3

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  21. You're on my mind and in my prayers, Krysten. I hope everything gets fixed quickly <3

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  22. Oh man! Praying for you girl! xoxoxo

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  23. Better tell that robot heart to get its' act together. It is 2013, the year of new and wonderful adventures. No mis-adventures, no surgery adventures, just good old fashioned fun time adventures. Like eating donuts and running far with friends. More of those kind.

    Sending happy heart thoughts through the interwebs: vashooooooom!

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    1. I know eh?! Penelope can be a real dick sometimes...

      Don't you worry surgery or not I am running with you in May (might have to drop down to the half) but you can bet I am gonna bounce back and run it!!

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  24. I am sorry girl!! I hope your appointment goes well!! Happy thoughts your way!

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  25. Sending many well wishes your way!! :)

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  26. Oh, Krysten! I'm gonna kick Penelope's ass......hoping for the best. Hang in there girlie. Sending positive thoughts your way.

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  27. Oh sweetie - thinking about you!! Wish I could give you a hug.

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  28. I read this in tears. I have no words, you must have been so nervous and let down when you heard the pop. I am slightly ashamed of myself for feeling bad over a silly race this weekend, when you have set backs like this, well, it's significant. You may have a robot heart but your entire being is full light, strength and love. I am so very sorry and wish I had more than words to give you. I am on my knees praying for the best possible outcome. Arms around you!

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  29. Sending warm and well wishes your way girl! XO

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