Tuesday, 13 November 2012

My #StrongisSexy Promise

Perhaps you noticed a bit of a shift in my last post.

For the last 10 months I have pushing myself from one goal to the next. I have had a singular focus - do more, be more, push harder. I have been pushing my body hard from one goal to next, all while expecting big things. Run Farther. Run Faster. Get Stronger. Be Better.
And despite accomplishing a whole heck of a lot - my first halfmy first full, a half marathon PR, and running 4 other additional races - I have found myself berating my efforts. I didn't hit the time I wanted. My body still wasn't strong enough. I wasn't doing enough. I wasn't good enough.

It has all left me questioning my motives.

Realistically I have made a ton of progress this year, especially given the circumstance. I have asked more of my body than most people. And most people have not toasted the ta-tas and they don't sport a robot heart. So why am I so critical?

My feeling about my body are complicated. All of the battles I have fought are written all over my body in the form of scars. And while the superficial element and the unnatural standards we as women are held to surely play a part in my insecurities. I also feel a lot of anger because no matter how hard I work, no matter how hard I push, I will forever and always be a Darwinian Fail. Another health struggle is always looming just right around the corner. And I hate my body for that.

And it is those feelings and that deep-seated negative self talk that has kept me from truly appreciating how far I come. And celebrating how strong this little defective body is.

My body is not perfect. And the truth is, it never will be. But it is okay to love it for all that it is and all that it can be - despite its flaws. And maybe, it's even okay to love it more because of all of those flaws.

Strong is Sexy and Being Healthy is Fabulous

I am strong and I will work to make my body stronger. This part of my adventure is about getting my body well, making a full recovery, and starting off 2013 feeling strong and healthy. I will be grateful for the progress I have made. I will continue to thank my little war-torn body for fighting this fight with me. And I promise to care for my body the way that it has taken care of me for the last 10 months. We are in this together after all.

That is my promise to myself.
What is your Strong is Sexy Promise?

Love your Favourite Darwinian Fail,
Krysten

13 comments:

  1. Wow, so inspiring!! You are awesome and I know you will get stronger!!

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  2. I love your positive outlook and determination. Always an inspiration!

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  3. Awesome K! I work to know that I am my worst enemy...and I "get over" the negativity!

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  4. I'm queen of this. Not fast enough. Never fast enough. But then I look down at my legs and I realize they deserve a lot of credit for taking me from point A to point B. And I love them. So my #strongissexy promise is to keep loving my legs for all the carrying me around they do :)

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    1. LOVE THIS!! Love those strong sexy legs!!!

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  5. I promise to look super strong and sexy after I run 50 miles in a couple weeks. (Thank goodness I will be finishing at night, so the pictures shouldnt look half bad.)

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    1. I think running 50 miles is pretty dang sexy!!! When is the race? Can I feature you on my Friday Strong is Sexy SO?!

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  6. My wife recently best thyroid cancer, so I understand how difficult in can be to rebuild. Just keep moving forward, as tacky as that sounds. You will motivate yourself and others. I know my wife motivates me to train day in an day out. Just don't think negatively, as the mind is your worst enemy, not your body.

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    1. Not tacky, it is definitely true. It is hard to stay positive when you "Think" you should be farther along than you are. But I am telling myself that if I keep working it will happen...

      PS So happy to hear your wife is doing well! Sending love and livestrong vibes :)

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  7. I will be INTERNALLY STRONG through all the lifecraziness ahead.
    thats sexy right?

    xo

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    1. DARN RIGHT IT IS! You are one of the strongest sexiest gals I know :)

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  8. Strong is super sexy and you ARE SO SO strong. I know it can be rough to feel like you're not doing as much as you could or should, but taking care of yourself (mentally as well as physically) is what counts. You're rocking that. You are Strong. You are Sexy.

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  9. I beat myself up too! I'm injured right now and it's really given me some time to reflect. Gosh darnit, I have overcome being abused, being homeless, being a teenage mom, to being the first in my family to graduate college..who the heck am I to say I'm not good enough?! No, my strong is sexy promise is to remember that I'm a survivor..and that the things that I have overcome have shaped me into the strong chica that I am today!

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