Okay, so I think it should be no secret by now if you have been reading along, that I am a girlie-girl.
I love anything pink or sparkly - and can usually be found wearing one or the other, or possibly both all at the same time. And this blog is generally filled with a lot of squeals, pop music, and more exclamation points than are probably necessary to express my enthusiasm.
But because I am girlie-girl, sometimes something simple and slightly trivial, like a very special dress, can mean a lot.
I am not sure if you all remember, but way back in November, I made my best friend's wedding and a specific dress my mission. That dress was meant to signify my journey toward self-acceptance and self-love. I purchased that dress in an attempt to show off and enjoy the body I had, while I had it. (aka before I toasted the tatas) And I decided that this was going to be my last HOORAH with my body, before sh*t got real.
Needless to say, this dress still has a very special place in my heart.
But it's significance has changed along the way.
For me toasting the ta-tas - while obviously difficult - has also be my greatest lesson in self-love. I thought that once I changed this part of my body that something pivotal to my sense of self would be lost. But when I woke up - while I obviously no longer had boobies or nipples for that matter - I was still Krysten. I was just a healthier version of the person I have always been, and for that I will be forever grateful!
So this weekend, as I stand here 10 months after operation goal dress, after all the dust has settled, and at another wedding - I find myself feeling differently about this dress.
I am standing here with a different body than the one I had the last time, but I feel even more beautiful.
Because today this dress signifies how far I have come.
Today I am thankful for my body's strength, ability, health, and tenacity. And I wear this dress to remember what beauty really means. Real beauty comes from strength and determination, a joyful heart and grateful spirit. Real beauty really does shine from within.
Love your Favourite Darwinian Fail,