During the last few weeks, as I ramped up my mileage, I have been feeling burnt out and more than a little worn down. I have been struggling to get excited about my training and my two-a-days. On every long run I struggle through my final 5km, and I wonder how the heck I am ever going to get to 42km. My body has been craving rest.
So this past weekend - rest I did. Well sort of... I had a girls weekend at the cottage for my girlfriend Sarah's Bachlorette! So I wouldn't exactly call it restful, but all of the laughing and girl-time silliness was definitely restorative.
We all spent the weekend at her cottage in Muskoka and got a little goofy. It was AMAZING! Most of the details of our girl weekend shall remain safely on the island. But I will reveal, that an epic girls-only dance party did consume a good part of the wee hours of Saturday.
PS I realize this is slightly strange song to pick as a Marathon anthem, but bare with me!
As I found myself rocking out to lovely Demi Lovato and belting out these lyrics, something struck me...
Don't wanna break your heart
I wanna give your heart a break
I know you're scared it's wrong
Like you might make a mistake
There's just one life to live
And there's no time to wait, to waste
So let me give your heart a break
Running a Marathon scares me. I want to reach this goal so badly. But all the weight and significance I have put into training and completing this race terrifies me. And it is my fear that is holding me back. I am past my comfort zone at this point, and there is part of my that worries I won't be able accomplish everything I am striving for.
But then I remember, I didn't sign up for all this "to break my heart". I signed up "to give my heart break", and to remind myself that this body is strong and it is finally healthy. And to remember that I worked damn hard for all of that. "There's just one life to live. And there's no time to wait, to waste", so it is time to put it all out there and push!
6 weeks of training left, so Let's Make It Happen!
Love your Favourite Darwinian Fail,