Monday, 6 August 2012

Motivation Monday - No more All or Nothing

I have been having a hard time finding my groove lately. The last 2 weeks of training have not been my best. And I am not proud of training I have done during the later half of July. I have been struggling with my nutrition, feeling panicked about training, and lacking confidence.


I know I need to make a change for August. So I am attempting to ditch my "All or Nothing" attitude.

It is no secret that I have a serious Type A personality. And I credit my little Type-A self for keeping me organized and driven, but it can also stall my progress all at the same time.

The little voice in my head is a negative girl. She is an evil little nay-Sayer who frequently tells me that my objectives are crazy. That my body is not built for this. That signing up for run a Marathon and have a whole bunch of people watch it on a reality TV show, probably means certain disaster. And that unless I can do everything perfectly, then I am destined for failure. That I am going to fail and everyone is going to watch me do it... BLAH! Isn't she the worst!?!

I have been overwhelmed while trying to process all that Marathon Training means. And I have found myself completely bogged down worrying about my race times, how I will perform, and all of the little details. Deep down I know I can't listen to negative voice, but that voice has been VERY LOUD the past few weeks. And thus, very difficult for me to ignore. And I have lost myself a little.

But this weekend, after heading home to visit my parents, I am feeling refreshed. I needed to hit reset. I needed a change of scenery. And I needed to get out of my own head for a while.

So I laced up my sneakers on Sunday morning and went running around the country side. It was nice to be out of city. And to just enjoy my run for my change.

I hit the dirt roads that flank my parent's house. I took in the wide open spaces. I breathed the clear country air. And I found myself smiling. I felt like me again.


I am not running this Marathon to win, to set any records, or for anyone else. I am running my Marathon for me. This is MY MARATHON. This has been tough year and a long hard battle. I have the scars to prove it. Genetics may have taken away a lot of things - including my boobies. But it can never take away my FIGHT. It will never break my SPIRIT. And I am running 42 km (26 point freakin 2 miles) to show that. I am running this race just to say I can! To say that despite everything - robot heart, malfunctioning ticker, horrible genetics, and no boobies - it does not matter. I am doing this anyways.

So Marathon Training Here I Come! I am back baby!
Love your Favourite Darwinian Fail,
Krysten






16 comments:

  1. You got this, girl!!! You inspire me to do better. I am going to sign up for the half marathon. It'll be about 2 weeks before my surgery in November. I am soo looking forward to some cooler weather running!

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    1. THANKS ERIN! So excited to hear all about your Half Marathon. You are going to be amazing!

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    2. Wonderful attitude! Racing against yourself is a cliche, but for good reason. Hope you have more runs with smile :)

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  2. Amazing how a change of scenery can allow us to refocus. I am a run-your-own-race type of person too.

    Have a great week of running! (the trails in your vlog look amazing)

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  3. I've been in a similar rut for a couple weeks and today am going out for a run without the GPS watch. Just me, the road, and a pair of shorts. I need the reset and the reminder that running isn't training. Running isn't for tomorrow's gain. I need to run to run. That's enough.

    Thanks for the post.

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  4. Girl, you've got this! You're so strong and you're inspiring us all. I love that you're making it your Marathon ("MY Marathon"). What an awesome perspective. OWN IT! You've got this and we're here to encourage you and be your biggest, loudest cheerleading section. We're going to be louder than the negative voice in your head. LET'S GOOO KRYSTEN!!!!!! Wishing you the best!

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  5. Amen to it all!!! YOu have to do what works for you and follow through on training at your pace and for your goals. I learned that the hard way by trying to do too much and follow all the "rules" instead of what I knew was best for my body. Ended up with a brutal marathon experience thanks to injury and my body getting run down from doing things too hard. WAy to go on being smart and keeping your eye on the goal of doing it for you. :)

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  6. Amen my friend, amen. Seriously, you are absolutely right to settle back and reset that engine of yours and to, more importantly, reset that mindset of yours. And you did just that with this little pep talk and moment of self reflection on your run. Get back out there and run for you, not for the marathon, not for anything else, but to do this for yourself - to remind yourself just how strong and fit and HEALTHY you are. Above all else, that's what this marathon should mean. Go get it girl!! This is exactly the mindset I've been trying like HELL to hang onto during my own training experience and so far? It's made a WORLD of a difference. You got this!!

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  7. I feel like you and I are having the same issues. I have really been struggling with an injury and am having problems with that all or nothing attitude. I love hearing you talk about it and knowing that I am not the only one. Helps to motivate me a ton. You are doing amazing!

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  8. I have the same "all or nothing" attitude and it can really take a toll after a while. I am glad you are refocusing your thoughts and looking at more than black and white. To all of us following along, you are doing an amazing thing!! Don't let minor little hiccups get in the way of your recognition of that!!

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  9. Such an inspiring post! Love your attitude and thanks for the motivation :)

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  10. Your going to do great - you have the fighter spirit! There will always be ups and down with training, make the end goal way more rewarding

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  11. Sounds like you have a plan of attack and good outlook on what needs to be accomplished to make this mary happen. That is the important part. Finish!

    Great post, great VLOG and you look brand spanking new like you haven't run a single mile. Nicely done!

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  12. This is just what I needed to run right now. I have been going through a little bit of a rut with my marathon training the last few weeks, but I feel ready to refocus and kick this marathons butt now!

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  13. sometimes all we need is a little escape to refresh and ditch that mentality. I love it!!

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  14. All I can say after reading such an inspirational post is...You GO Girl!!

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